There is not a breath of the Caribbean breeze stirring tonight, and we are out on our veranda sprayed up with bug spray, red candles flickering and BBQ a sizzling. “Wild Thing” weekend so far has been a blast…….relaxing and enjoying sun, sex, smoking a little weed and sleeping!!! I do enjoy the decadent sensual pleasure of being numb, of just feeling so relaxed I am not stimulated to think about anything. I embrace the Rastafarian rhetoric and let go of the feeling that life should be anything but about purpose and pace.
We have inspired our “excellent adventure” Canadian friend Al to read Napolean Hill’s ‘Think and Grow Rich’ and the cogs are now turning in terms of how we can truly make the right connections here to make our new funeral company a reality! Re-visiting ‘Think and Grow Rich’ [T&GR] has also inspired me somewhat, as I hunger for that buzz of making something happen! It is strange to see how so much of Nick’s philosophy is underpinned by T&GR yet how he can waiver from the self-discipline to absolutely focus!
My stoned realization has been that I should focus my energies on my own goal (if not dream) and that is to write a novel about our rekindling story. I know that I sometimes get frustrated with my lack of my own goal (baby) and can often take out these frustrations on Nick. I therefore want to empower myself, and see the ideal way to do this as writing a book. This also fulfils my burning desire to write, and a secret ambition to become a writer! Alas, my stumbling block is my writing skill and style, and writing a novel requires a mastery of novel-writing.
The Lebanese continue to press us for developing their web site, but we are still wrapped up working on our new funeral empire!
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